Okay there shall be some swearing, if you don’t like, don’t read. Thanks.
Basically I have a huge-ass crush on this guy, let’s call him Bobby, because that is his code name in a Skype group that I’m in. He had been acting pretty awkward for a while and ignoring me and just being a plain ass. So my friend, on my Facebook account, confronted him. It ended up really awkward and him saying some pretty hurtful stuff like “why did you even think we were close?” “where did you get this information from” “all the stuff I told you didn’t matter because I told a lot of other people”. And like an idiot I just started crying. So by this point I’m pretty pissed off, but to understand why, some back story is needed.
He used to always ask me for help with homework and because I’m fucking stupid, I always let him. The good thing was that after I spoke to him, we would talk about some pretty deep stuff. He told me his insecurities, his past crushes, a bunch of secrets, and the worst part was that he said bad stuff about my friends and I didn’t even try to defend them. Because I’m a fucking backstabbing bitch. Great.
So then I started liking him more and more. He would tell me all of this stuff, and because I’m so fucking stupid, I thought that he cared about me. At least a little bit, at least in a friendly way, but I realised that I was completely wrong.
So he was mad at me for a really long time. But then, the same friend who talked to him on my Facebook account fixed things up between us, so Bobby and I started talking again. He apologised for being mean and saying that he just wanted to forget about it and put it behind us. Yay so I was really happy and stuff. But this was just fucking bullshit.
Because today I found out that he told his friend, let’s call him Robert. So Robert told a lot of people something from our conversation which was my friend (on my FB account) asking “do you care about me?” and Robert has been telling everyone. Robert has also told people whilst he was with Bobby and Bobby doesn’t even do anything. Yet Bobby gets mad at me for making my other friends do my ‘dirty business’ when I’m not making them do anything.
I don’t think that Bobby and I are talking right now. Again. FUCK.
Until next time,